WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN?
I grew up with the disease of alcoholism. Really no big deal. Looking back I am grateful for all of my childhood, including being impacted by choice when confronted by this disease in the way I thought and how I dealt with feelings and emotions. What choices do we really have as children other then to survive by any means possible? I was fortunate to realize the impact alcoholism had on me when I was a young adult. We are responsible for the choices we make as an adult no matter what our childhood experiences were or currently are. That’s life, we grow, we live, we decline and we ultimately die. End of story, we all have the same destiny and the same opportunity in life to live our lives to the fullest.
I realize that there are people in this world that have had a wonderful childhood and are living a wonderful life devoid of any significant fear, resentment, dishonesty, selfishness, or self-centeredness. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically they are blessed with the best life has to offer. I would not call these people perfect but without addiction and major obstacles in life, they are wonderful. I hope that you are one of them and I wish you well with your continued success in life.
But if that doesn’t sound like you or you don’t feel like that… keep reading!
On a scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being the most severe, the most horrific, I would say that my childhood experience with alcoholism was a 2 or 3, mild in comparison to the experiences of others. Others, who I have met on my life journey have been repeated molested and sexually violated by friends, relatives and even their own parent. The way evil manifests itself in individuals, especially those in trusted positions, to do such heinous acts in terms of spiritual, emotional, mental and physical abuse is without limits. I can’t begin to think of what may have happened to you in your childhood or later in life. All I know is that it was likely more severe than my experience, probably a lot more severe.
While not personally fully exposed to all the problems in life, I have been intimately fully exposed to the solution. I am not sure why but at a young age, probably because of the unpredictability in my childhood at times, I was always searching to try to understand and figure out what life was all about and what my role in life was or would be. This lifelong quest has transitioned to this current phase of my life as an Inspiration Seeker and Personal Revivalist. Anything I share, I have personally experienced in life.
Have You Re-Parented & Re-God’d Yourself in Life?
We can go back all the way to the day of our birth, even nine months before to capture our complete life experience and review our mandated childhood choices in light of now being an adult and able to override those earlier decisions and understand what the hell happened to us.
We can choose to be our own loving parent from here on out.
The next thing we realize is that our perspective of God is likely based on the role our parents had in our life or their perspective of God. Your parent’s perspective may not have come directly from them but through a disease they were afflicted with. In my case, most of my perfectionism, control, all-or-nothing thinking, and judgmentalism came from the disease of alcoholism and not thoughts, words or actions of my parents. Yes, there were times the disease manifested itself directly through them to me knowing their thoughts, words and actions. But, moving past my parents’ disease to my own shortcomings and character defects, I see the workings of alcoholism in my life not any negativity from my parents.
So the opportunity to Re-God ourselves exists and is a real opportunity in our lives. God should be pure inspiration in your life, showing you the way to your True Self and maintaining your Eternal Child Within and, what most people don’t realize, supplying the power to realize our life dreams. Yes, nutrition powers the body, but God, your intimate God, powers the spirit which in turn powers the mind and body. May you find your God within you.
Maybe there is no such word as “Re-God’d?” Probably not. Sounds a lot like the word “Regard.”
There are seven definitions for the word “Regard:’ 1) to look upon or think of with a particular feeling:
to regard a person with favor; 2) to have or show respect or concern for; 3) to think highly of; esteem; 4) to take into account: consider; 5) to look at: observe: She regarded him with amusement; 6) to relate to; concern: The news does not regard the explosion; 7) to see, look at, or conceive of in a particular way; judge (usually followed by as): I regard every assignment as a challenge. They regarded his behavior as childish.
How do you feel about yourself? Do you respect yourself and hold yourself in high esteem? Have you stopped to observe yourself in life—past, present and in the future? When you do so, do you only do so in your perspectives and attitudes of the past? The choice can be and is yours to make in how you regard life, yourself and others in this world. But that choice is limited timewise. We are only here for a short period of time.
Ditto for “Re-Parented.” Probably no such word though it sounds a lot like the word “Repented.”
The definition for “Repent” is a bit shorter. The word is a verb and can be used with or without an object, whatever that means? Verb without an object: 1) to feel sorry, self-reproachful, or contrite for past conduct; regret or be conscience-stricken about a past action, attitude, etc. (often followed by of):
He repented after his thoughtless act; 2) to feel such sorrow for sin or fault as to be disposed to change one’s life for the better; be penitent. Verb (used with an object): 3) to remember or regard with self-reproach or contrition: to repent one’s injustice to another; 4) to feel sorry for; regret:
to repent an imprudent act.
Maybe we should regard and repent our way to peace, joy and freedom?
Why do we see the short term pain and not the longer term peace, joy and freedom that is available to every one in life?
It’s as though we are on a bicycle, a bit weary from pedaling uphill and into the wind for what seems like forever, looking for an easier life and being able to coast a bit. The answer is just over the next rise but we have given up, lost hope and just stopped and stayed wherever our problems in life have brought us.
Repenting for me was being completely honest with myself, God and one other human being. Then for those things which I could make amends for I did. While a very stressful and challenging task, I felt immediate relief, liberation and a sense of a new path to follow in life along with new powered resources to propel me down that path. Through repentance I found acceptance, love and compassion for myself.
If you have a life of despair, my prayer is that you realize that the real part of your life story is yet to be written but you have to make the choice to get back on that bike one more time and pedal really hard for a relatively short period to your peace, joy and freedom.
As The Parlotones sing… Don’t Just Stand There Window Shopping with Your Life!
Good luck in life!
Have a TROML Day today!
Your Personal Revivalist,
Anonymous Andy
The Lyrics of “Window Shopper”
(Courtesy of The Parlotones & LyricWikia)
You bury your dreams deep inside
It’s up to you to breathe in life
The chemicals of goosebumps
The chemicals of butterflies in stomachs
It’s up to you to realise
If you never try, then you’ll never fail
If you never fail, then you’ll never gain
And you’ll be a window shopper
Don’t just stand there window shopping
You’re a secret master of disguises
Pretend to be happy, you big fat liars
The formula of “could’ve been’s”
Swallowed up by cautious routines
Changing Mr. Compromise
If you never try, then you’ll never fail
If you never fail, then you’ll never gain
And you’ll be a window shopper
Don’t just stand there window shopping
Are you marching, are you marching
Are you marching to someone else’s drum?
You bore me with sorrow
You bore me to death
If you’re still window shopping
And we’re born as dreamers
Amongst the non-believers
Who are called a genius
And it’s easier said than done
The man in the mirror says
I am a window shopper
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